Building and Repairing Trust in a Parent-Child Relationship

Recently, in the heart of a heated conversation, my child admitted to me: “I don’t trust you.”   

Ouch.  

But also “WHAT? HOW? WHY NOT?!”  After all, not only did I give them life, but I do everything in my power to make their life possible, the kid doesn’t even know half the stuff I do for them.  

The lack of trust, not only made me mad, but more importantly hurt my feelings.

The hurt often muffles other feelings, so I needed to put it aside if I was going to understand what my child was really trying to tell me.  I NEED my kid to trust me,  I worry who they will go to with all the voices in their life.  TRUST.

One evening, after my child had a fit of anger, the stomping, the slamming of doors and the yelling, all of which I reacted to, we were finally talking calmly under the cover of darkness right before they fell asleep:  “Mom, when you got mad at me tonight, that is why I don’t trust you. I don’t know how you are going to react to me when I am upset.”

I have spent a lot of time thinking about what this means.  I did not see my reaction to their fit of rage as “getting mad”, but I did react. It is my own feelings in which I am reacting, and my child cannot predict how I will feel and therefore, cannot trust.  

I am starting to do a better job with just being in the moment, being in the pain of the moment with my child.  What they are feeling – I have no idea.  Much like when we are feeling, we often cannot explain what it is or why we feel it.  As grown-ups, most of us have learned to outwardly control our rages, but we often feel them inside.   

Our children need anchors – by reacting – I move the anchor.  If I can stay steady in the storm of their feelings, if they can know, and predict, my steady reaction, the anchor does its job, and we can be caught in any passing storm–but remain safe.   

When I am steady, they can be whomever they need to be at that moment.  When they can safely be themselves, they learn to steady their own boat. 

How can you be an anchor?  

1. Just listen, do not react, beyond a head nod for affirmation.  No matter how wild the storm, know it is going to pass.  

2. Let time work its magic.  Time heals and distracts.  Leave space for your child to process on their own.  They will talk to you when ready.

3. Trust–you may not ever know specifically what caused the storm, but know the storm was real for your child.